April

"What the fuck is up with April? Is it just me, or in the last few weeks has there not been a TON of posts about girls unhappy in their relationships? Frankly, I've been feeling it too. My boyfriend and I have been having some problems recently, and while we are working them out, and it is going well, I can't help but think - why are so many girls hurting right now? Is it the rainy weather? The fact that university semesters are almost/are over? Or is it just a weird coincidence?"

Taken from bunny_tsukino on LJ.

Yeah..I felt it too because I had one of the worst days early April. But everything's good right now. Right???

Speaking of April, today marks the last day of April which means somebody no longer is the king anymore! Hahahahaha! Man, I'm evil *grins*

Oh, i changed the background of my desktop. I feel so gloomy everytime I on my laptop now. Life's a bitch. Haha.

Dilemma

I have been thinking a lot.
But I can't really let go..
Should I? Maybe I shouldn't.
How would people see me as a person then?
People judge.
Perhaps I will be judged differently for what I will be doing.
But I don't care.
Should I?
But I really want to....for a change.
I think I'll be really comfortable with it.
Hmmm......








Should I cut my hair? I need it for a change. Maybe during the holidays. Hehe.

No title

Waited for the whole day and this is what I get.

Maslow my ass

Camped in the library for almost half a day yesterday. Yes, 3-9 pm. We are THAT crazy. Somehow I am so tired of "studying". Not being able to concentrate is another thing. Management is driving me nuts. Why are management subjects so plain annoying? First, you learned bout a management theory in Semester One and only found out that you are learning a new theory to prove it wrong in Semester Two? Give me a break.

Yea, so Maslow was saying you have to satisfy your basic needs to achieve higher needs according to the hierarchy of needs. Bullshit la. We get motivated according to our own priorities. Everyone has different priorities, therefore, different sets of needs. We don't get motivated according to a fixed sets of needs =S This is what I think personally. Says who you have to satisfy your physiology and safety needs before achieving social, exteem and self-actualisation needs? I can achieve all at the same time can't I? Urggghhh!! Screw OB la. I am just so frustrated right now. When you are all confortable with something, you just feel so reluctant to change and adapt.

Before I get too educational, I snapped a lot of pictures yesterday in the library and outside. Will post them up when I have the time. Might spend another day in the library tomorrow, if bi wants to go. I am exhausted - physically and mentally. Even coffee doesn't help. I need love.. =(

Hope

Hoping and wishing..
Sometimes things happen when you hope less.
I am happy that it happened =)

Introducing...Babo!!

Today was the most unproductive day ever! I slept for like...I lost count but it felt like forever. Now my back, throat, head, urm....neck hurt. I only did 4 pages! What is this?! I promised never to sit next to that someone in the library ever again. Haha!! Stop tempting me with mobile games la!! Exams dei.. You want me to die is it?! Oh I love my tamagotchi. I named it Babo (I don't know why la don't ask me!!) Oh..I forgot to feed my lovely pet and I don't know what it is but I heard it changes colour as it grows! Yes yes, turn mine rainbow please. *grins*

Jeng jeng jeng!!! Tamagotchi people!!! On my mobile!!!

Let's begin!

Baby babo..-.-"

Zero discipline (like me)

See see!! Its name is really Babo!

After I fed him he gave me shit. What the....


And then....he turned into this! I thought he died T.T Why not rainbow colour?

And he fell sick just like me but I gave him medicine and he recovered faster than me!

Good night Babo..*pecks forehead wtf*

Okay..my turn to sleep now. Long day awaits tomorrow.

Goodbye to you

Are you gonna leave me again?
Yea, I thought so too.


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Wohh....My fingers can be used as an eraser. You see la what happened to my laptop.


Notice anything wrong?



!!!!! The keyboard is eating up my E!!!



My A got swallowed T.T My new laptop dei. Sudah mati dei. T.T


What caused this?!!!! Maybe I need to use gloves when I type. Hohoho. Like fishmonger. I thought of drawing the alphabets myself using liquidpaper. Haha. Can ah you think? But my hand not steady la.

Sick + Stressed = Psycho

Sometimes all I need are friends who could just stop telling lies for a day. This is all I am asking for. I've been dealing with selfish people for God knows how long and I thought things will be different in uni. So wrong. Whatever.

OOOOHHHHHHH...I'm finally sick! After so long! I am not a weak person at all but this time, Nottingham killed me. Yeah la I am very stressed right now. Gonna explode anytime. Come disturb me la I will fart wan. Will I pass with flying colours this time? I need to. I have to!!! I cannot afford to risk my 30%!! People pray for me okay! I wanna get first class honours. Haha. (yeah dream on)

And I thought of you today..(but you merajuk. eat shit la you!)

Syok sendiri

I've been sneezing the whole day since last night. Somebody must have been thinking of me a lot. -.-"

Didn't study much. 10 pages in 2 days. I am such a champion la. And I have the time to camwhore. What to do. I looked into the mirror and saw a huge thing right in the middle of my face. Of course I didn't believe my own eyes. So I went for the camera. And I found out....

I have pointy nose (quite la..) Not clear? Nvm see next.

Ignore the eyes and others. Just focus at the nose la. Quite high right?

Muahahaha! I don't have a flat nose! Sayang!! Our babies must have my nose okay?!!! *syok sendiri*

Okay back to AED. *dreadful* Will blog bout Good Charlotte tomorrow.

After A While

After A While
by Veronica A. Shoffstall

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.


And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child


And you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.


After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.


And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...


and so, i learn...

Say it isn't so

If it isn't so
Why does my heart feel this way?

If it isn't so

Then why things have to be so obvious?

If it isn't so

Why do I fear?

If it isn't so

Why are those coincidence?

Say it isn't so..

For I will have many more sleepless nights to come

forgotten

he forgot to say "love you"

Twilight Realm

The only "decent" picture of us of that night. Hahaha! Yeah I looked like crap in all of them. So no pics. Boooo!! I look terrible with flash on la.


Shino and I. Finally a decent picture of me. -.-"

If you ask me the dinner was bleh because I was bored and I almost fell asleep waiting for the food. The food was so so and I thought the first dish was grass =S Looks like it. HAHA! Look at the greens. Urgghhh! I liked the mushroom and abalone though. And I thought the black stuff were vinegar but it tasted like oyster sauce. Yeah. Horrigible. Bodoh!

Oh...I love my dress! I think it's so simple and elegant. But I had no make up on except for eyeliner and a bit of eye shadow. My hair was a disaster because I didn't bother to do anything to it. Whatever. Not my wedding also. But I still look gorgeous la right right right??!! Perasan gila. Okay otak jam now. I wanna sleep. Ciaoz.

ps: Didn't go for after party because we had CIMA Conference the next day at 8am in the morning. Crazy.

Concert

Happy happy. I'm done with assignment! But it's time to study for exams. Bummer!
Semester 2 is ending soon which means I will be graduating soon. A little sad. But holidays!! Omg! 4 months!! Babi la. I don't know what I will do for the whole 4 months.

The concert was great though it started out rocky. Didn't really enjoy as much as the previous one. Got a bit sad towards the end for some reasons. I'm beginning to love going to concerts. I'm going to the Good Charlotte's one on Saturday in Bukit Jalil. Free tickets from Chintan! Looking forward to it!

Oh. I slept til 4pm today. When I got up, my eyes were so red as if I cried in my sleep. So scary.

ps: wanted to post pictures but photobucket is screwed so no pictures. booooooooooooo!

Broken

Made a huge mistake.
Became heartless.
Swamped with guilt and regret.
In hopes of dreaming that everything would be like it was before.
Only that it is impossible.
Worse day of my life.

hmm

mixed feelings...

sohainya aku

hari ini aku bangun awal dan lepak sepanjang hari. indahnya. akan tetapi hatiku berasa tidak selesa. entah kenapa. mungkin aku terlalu banyak berfikir. oh! dia tidak membalas sms aku. mungkin dia tidak senang. tidak apalah. eh. ada orang rindu aku. kelakarnya. akan tetapi mengapa aku tidak berasa gembira? mungkin dia bukan orang itu jadi aku tidak peduli. aduh, kenapalah aku menaip dalam bahasa melayu? aku sudah lama tidak berbahasa ini jadi memang teruk sikit. takpelah kan? bukannya ada orang baca. sohai betul la. aku hanya menangis sedikit sahaja hari ini. mungkin besok tidak akan lagi. hari hari pun sohai. aku sangat the sohai.

ohhhh maria!!! tetiba saja aku terasa nak jerit itu ohhhh maria!! kenapa kan itu movie perfume tidak dipanggil minyak wangi? instead, dipanggil kisah seorang pembunuh. wahahahhaa. randomnya aku ni. kan dah gila. ohhhhh!!! aku harus continue kat aku punya assignment.

sucky bm. hahahaha. i don't even know wtf i was saying. too bored. what to do la what to do!! okay i wanna go melabur...ehh i mean melabur some idea to my assignment. ciao.

why do all good things come to an end

looking at you looking at me
searching for the truth in your eyes
i know what's left of us
find myself so lost
i don't recorgnise anymore
the person now that you claim to be
the way our path has crossed
but i guess we're drifting away
from each other
come back to me
make me whole again
and i will make you happy
i can feel your high
but not when you're with me
come back to me
things will be different
i promise
let me be the one to hold you tight
let me be the one to share laughter with
let me be the one to say i love you to
let me love you
do not walk away
are we too far gone for me to save?
and i never thought that we'd come to this
lost count of the reasons to cry
honestly
what is it gonna be
why do all good things come to an end?

Talipon-ing without the talipon.

*points to the title* OMG I'M SO FUNNY!!! HAHAHAHA *dies*
I'm so lame.

I'm so full right now. Went to Talipon for dinner and guess what. WE ATE THE WHOLE RESTAURANT! Okay la not that serious but we almost did. We were there for 2 hours. 2 hours of pure eating session *dies* Talk about losing weight for annual dinner la. Oh I haven't gotten myself a dress and shoes for the dinner. Too broke and no time. Busy busy busy me! Somebody's birthday coming soon, dinner coming soon, assignment handing in soon, exams coming soon! Omg.

Somebody saw something in Talipon. Disgusting.

Good news! I'd written 2 sentences on my essay for today. Such a big achievement! *feels proud* I really need some time off from the laptop. Been spending too much time here til my otak jam and I think I am going blind (in case I go blind I need people to help me get dressed and stuff every morning because I don't wanna be an ugly blind girl. yeah la I wanna maintain cannot meh? wtf)

I hate to say this but to you who only come to me when you need me or bored. I am so sick of you. I am nobody's fool but my own. So don't you *tooting* treat me like a toilet seat. You don't come to me only when you need me. I won't *tooting* layan you next time. Hello and goodbye. Moron.