MAD

My booboo is still at work as I am typing this. It is now 2a.m. I REPEAT 2 EFFING A.M. I hope this torture will end soon..oh wait! This will go on every end of the month fhl. I should consider making something healthy for him to consume when he comes over. Mommmyyyyy!! *runs to mom for help*

Need more space

I feel so reluctant to go back to work. Oh wait...I'm on leave again tomorrow! Hahahahhahaha sucker!

Anyways, I will still be "working" tomorrow because I have a room full of clothes to clear. (and clean)

It's hard to not notice the pile of clothes on the couch when a person walks into my room. IT'S LIKE A FUCKING EVEREST!

Yesterday I threw that pile of clothes onto my bed and it looked like this...

 The Everestttt...

It took me hours to clear that and that pile still looked the same after several hours. I gave up after that and threw them back onto the couch reason being that...

  My closet

My closet was full too fml. I HAVE NO SPACE FOR THE CLOTHES ON THE COUCH. So now I have a closet and couch full of clothes. I will try to clear everything tomorrow and I shall update the progress here. Hopefully I don't die of clothes OD.  

Sin city

I did it again. I have sinned so much I should be tied up and tickled with a feather wtf.

You have no idea what 3 hours could do to you especially if you are stranded in a shopping mall with stores window panels screaming SALE! Discounts! Year End Clearance!

Welcome to sin city!

I think I have purchased more than 5 pairs of shoes for the past 2 months. Aaaahhhh~...my never-ending love for shoes! and hot guys.....

 My haul for the past 3 months...or 2....

There are repeated pictures if you are smart enough to notice. I didn't buy that many la!

Looking at the pictures, I should stop buying. When the producing stops, the buying stops too wtf (I am not cursing all the shoe factories to close down).

Let go

I have been a psycho bitch lately. I haven't been very fair to you all this while. It's always me complaining how you do things to hurt me but I didn't really reflect on the hurtful words I'd said to you. I guess I owe you an apology. Tonight your question slapped me in the face. "Why are you so psycho?"

To be honest, I don't know why. I don't know when it started but I guess I am only psycho when I am with you. I guess I am again jealous, insecure and sensitive. I don't necessarily have to be like this but I chose to be. It's just a way to make me feel better by putting the blame on others. It's my escapade. When the attention is not on me I panic. I don't want it to be other people. I just want it to be me.

But I have come to realized that it is not always about me. I will not always be the one. Maybe the eagerness to control comes from the over-protectiveness of you over me. Maybe that contributes to my desire/need to control you because you are controlling me. I guess it's the matter of time where we both let go - little by little.

But when?                                                                                                           

                                                                                                                                                              Haha..baby with weird face <3

                                                                                                       

KLM

Harroww...I'm bored at home.

I barely had anything to eat. It's not because my parents are abusing me. It's because I was too fat picky. Mom bought meehoon but I only had a few sips of the soup. There's KFC but it's bad for complexion. Dai sei laaaaaaaaaa...

I remember being fed like a wild boar on my way to London. I was on KLM and the very first meal was some snacks and beverages because I took a night flight. Then I fell asleep while watching some movies. In the middle of the night (if I'm not mistaken I was dreaming about getting lost in Heathrow airport wtf) I was awaken by this funny Dutch accent "Would you like noodles or ice cream?" I must say it's a weird choice. Noodles or ice cream??????????? I repeated whatever I last heard because I was so sleepy and still dreamy from my sleep. So I was given this ice cream in a cup. I ate the whole thing with my eyes closed jeng jeng jeng...It's in the Chong's blood. My dad can sleep and wake up to finish up his coffee (complete with some biscuits to dip wtf) and continue sleeping after. My mom always brews him a cup of coffee before she goes to sleep. Then the stewardess had to come back for the second time and disrupt my peaceful slumber. "Candy bar or biscuits?" WHY ARE U OFFERING ME ALL THE FATTY FOOD AT THIS HOUR?!!! I chose candy bar =))))))))))))))

Picture taken after the rude awakening

On my way home to Malaysia, I thought they would be serving me with shit loads of food so I conveniently missed lunch at the Heathrow airport because I thought it would save me some money (my flight was 5 plus in the evening). This time, I starved my way home. Because it was freaking past dinner time for the people in Amsterdam (I transited in Schipol Airport) so they didn't serve dinner nor snacks. I was so hungry I almost died. All they gave me was a Candy bar and that was my lunch and dinner for the day. The next morning I was greeted with breakfast but I was half dead already. So for those who are catching evening flight from London Heathrow on KLM, please please please take your lunch or early dinner before you starve yourself to death (only applicable to those going on long-haul flights).

Arsenal Stadium baby! Yes I was nuts.

Saw

If there's a way to recognize a liar the world will be a better place. It is hard to believe that five years down the road we're still back at square one. We are not exactly the perfect couple hence, the perfection that is pleasing to the eyes of many is actually an illusion that we are trying to uplift. The foundation of a 5 years relationship must be very strong, you think. In fact, many couples would have gotten married within the first 2 years of their relationship. I am glad that we have not stepped into the marriage zone just yet because I don't know if problem like this will continue to haunt us me in the future. I am very upset that after 5 years I still can't see past the doubts and insecurities. I am very disappointed that after 5 years you still do things to upset me. Many times I refused to absorb the things that you said because to me after all, they are all excuses. There are reasons for everything and if you cannot provide a very strong explanation for what you have done, then I am very sorry that you have failed me once again. If you think that I am stubborn then try standing in my shoes and we will see if you accept my "explanation" - I would call it an excuse. Please do not be selfish because if you do not care bout my feelings then I have all the right reasons not to care about yours. Perhaps I have been bounded in this relationship for too long that I can't even imagine doing things to upset you. I guess it's not the same for you that is why at the end of the day I am always the one getting hurt.

The "lemon"

Weekend has come and gone in the blink of an eye.

But fear not! As I am on leave for the rest of next week muahahhaahhahaha!

Oh joy! However, I can feel that I will be sucked into boredom for the whole week. Boo all of you who are working! Boo the company for forcing me into clearing my annual leave. This is something that I have to rant here. First and foremost, I haven't been taking leave since forever so I have like all 15 days flashing before my eyes. Secondly, my company policy does not allow the leave to be carried forward unlike any other companies. Thirdly, there is no stated rules that we can cash back our annual leave so you have to clear them no matter what. Finally, there is simply no way that I can clear mine when I am busy all year round! You tell me, how the toot am I supposed to take leave if I have students flocking in everyday. Not to mention school fairs and exhibitions. I am so tired, fml. So here I am, clearing my annual leave in this joyous month. This explains why I am so free now lalalala~

I am being a very good girl lately. Took my mom and grandma here and there for lunch and shopping. Usually my mom would pay the bills but look momma! Your girl is all big and fat grown up now that I can pay for your meals and shopping *awww

So I took my mom and grandma to The Yogitree in Gardens the other day and my mom's order came first.

Cream sauce on roasted chicken with vegetables and whipped potato as sidelines.

Close up

Notice the yellow looking thing? My mom took that piece of yellow thing and squeezed it over the chicken. When she put it down, I realized it looks nothing like lemon. It is actually a piece of melon wtf.

The "lemon" after being squeezed.

My order. Spaghetti with grilled prawns and spicy cream sauce.

Ginseng, Longan, Red dates and Wolfberry Tea

After long hours of shopping, we went to Austin Chase for tea. A big mistake. The cakes were such a huge disappointment. It is nothing compared to Alexis or even Secret Recipe. We should have gone to Alexis instead. Actually we chose Austin Chase because they had this lunch promotion where you get 2 cups of coffee and a piece of cake for RM16+. Sucker for promotions.

4 plus 1

The feeling never left me
Every time I see you
It grows stronger
Every time I hear you
My heart beats faster
Every time I kiss you
My mind wanders
Sometimes I can't imagine
If this is going to end
But I know that as long as there's love
There will be you and me
I would hold your hand
And lead you to our future
Would you hold mine too?

Fear

I always wonder is it me or is there anyone else that has similar fear?


I am afraid of letting my legs hang off my bed in case it gets bitten (be it mosquitoes or vampires I'm still afraid). I think the fear begins when I first watched Ju-On. Remember the creepy little kid with white face and really really black eyes who sits by the bedside with his head staring down and when the camera zooms in he would look up? Omg I would die every time I recall that scene. So every night I would make sure the blanket wraps all of me without hanging loose - think cocoon. But the position doesn't last very long as I kick every possible thing off my bed in my sleep.

I have a ceiling fan hanging above my bed. I have this fear thinking that the fan would spin off the ceiling and chop everything into half. So I will not on my fan to the highest speed.

I also have this fear of sounds from electronic devices. If a CPU makes very loud noises all of a sudden I will be very afraid. I always have this feeling that it may explode or something. It is not CPU alone - things like cars, air-conditioner, television, washing machine, you name it. So if anything of those making unusual noises, I will switch them off. I remember there was once the air-conditioner in my room was making terrible noises, I slept in the living room on the couch for the night.

Love

Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. [1 Cor 13:7-8]

 

Does it? 

When everyone around you is so full of shit all you have is nothing but yourself.

Dickhead

1. You are not the only one working. I am too. If you think that you are facing some shits at work and I deserve to be punished then think again because I face more shits than you at work. I am the one facing clients all year round. NOT YOU. Learn to deal with it. You have to be grateful that you are doing something that you don't have to deal much with people. If you think you are a people person then think again because when what you do involves dealing with demanding and difficult people every day I think you will not be a people person after a week. So don't fucking come back and tell me you are very stressed when I am equally as stressful as I have targets to meet.
2. If you think that you are very exhausted that you have to work from 9-10 for a week or 2 then think again. Because I have worked for more than a year without taking any leave (maybe only 3 times and that was medical) and I have to work OT EVERY FUCKING DAY. You don't have to work on Saturdays but I have to and sometimes even on Sundays too. So don't try to spell out what is exhaustion when I can definitely taste it on my own. Try working OT without getting paid for it all year round while at the same time dealing with difficult people yelling at you all the time. And the best thing is the company will not even recognise you for this as this is purely target based reward system kinda company.
3. When all you have to face are some idiots from another country for 2 weeks, try facing a bunch of shitty people at work 24/7 and you will know what is hideous. You are very lucky that your colleagues are very nice to you. Perhaps you should come and work in my company where there are politics and backstabbers all the time. You are lucky that you don't have to be a scape goat.
4. Yes. You may say that I gave you shits but who doesn't? Dare tell me that you didn't. When I was at the most stressful moment. When I was working whole day til late evening meeting clients. I didn't answer your calls. What you did? You fucking yelled at me over the phone and accused me of cheating. What is that shit all about? What about you not answering your calls when I called you? Did I do the same to you? At least I didn't yell at you. At least I have the courtesy to ask if you are still at work. Please be fair to me.

I am wrong for being a bitch but you are wrong too for being a dickhead.

Yes. I. Am. Very. Angry. Now.

Oh so fugly

I need help. I am facing serious acne breakout and it scares me. I don't consider it as an occasional breakout because it's been bothering me for a few weeks now. I don't usually get much acne on my face and now they are like infested everywhere especially on the sides of my face, forehead, chin, cheek, nose, EVERYWHERE! I feel ugly now. I think it's stress related due to work but I am not sure either. Am I going through a phase? An ugly one that is. As if I am not ugly enough I also have serious problem of back acne now. It has gone from 2 to 9 on a scale of 10. Kill me now please *waves goodbye to beautiful bareback/off shoulders/strapless/tube dresses for Christmas and parties*

I feel gazillion times uglier now. HEEEEeeellllllllpppppppppppppppppppppp!