talentless

I just feel like singing til the sun don't shine even though I am talentless wtf. But how come I always end up not having the courage to sing during karaoke sessions? fml x10000000000000000000

Coward

I spent too much time thinking of what ifs. When that stopped, I spend time thinking bout I shouldn't have.

I need to stop being afraid.

6 degrees

The world is a small place. I never thought that bloggers that I have been stalking online could be friends of my clients. People are acquainted with each other one way or another. Is this what they called the six degrees of separation? Maybe my next door neighbour is related to my cousin's boyfriend's aunty. Or maybe I am related to Nicole Scherzinger. Nicole Kidman will be a more suitable candidate since she is from Australia. At least it is nearer to Malaysia wtf. Pfffft...

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Have been working til late lately and I really hate my lifeless life. I am especially mad when I have to do the job of 3 and I don't even get OT pay. I wish I was in the UK and I could lodge a complain to the union. Again...another dream

=)


And baby...I'm looking forward to the trip that you have been saying....Let's go!

D

I love it when it speaks my mind.

play safe

By playing safe will get you no where. Start taking risks not only with work but also with life.

Gotta bungee jump. Ciao~

Archive of love

I can't believe that I am still saving our MSN conversations after all these years.

Never happy

I have planned for happy things to write about and in fact I have started writing half of it but I had it saved in draft. I guess it may never make its appearance on my blog. Not for now at least. It is always the sad things that are so overwhelming thus the happy memories are usually left forgotten. I am upset...

April

It says that we should take no chances this month especially for Virgos. Jobs half-finished and relationships left hanging in the air. Does this mean that I should be patient and wait for the better in May? Maybe I should. After all, patience is a virtue.

I want to...

go to UK again.
























get a new job.
























go swimming.
























learn yoga and salsa.

get a new closet.
























earn more money.
























make new friends.
























sleep 12 hours a day.

have long hair again.































be happy with what I am currently doing =(































go to Adelaide.
























smack the shit out of someone.
























sleep now.


































*all pictures were taken during my trip to the UK last October

I am an obese

It's proven.....

It's over

I lost myself in all these fights
I lost my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led


It's broken...

GONG XI FA CAI!

I am unhappy. But I don't wanna talk about it.

Anyhoooooooooo, I just got back from Indonesia and it was...refreshing. I can't think of a better word to describe this vacation because you have to be there to see it for yourself. Rubbish everywhere. Bribery is like a common thing on the street be it among the local authorities or common people. Imagine leaving a parking space and you have to pay someone unknown for leading you out. In Malaysia you don't even need this kind of people. I mean we know how to get out of the parking space ourselves. If a person doesn't know how then he/she does not deserve a license in the first place. Yea, so they volunteer to lead you out and it's an obligation to "tip" them. These are normal people with no jobs and they just make money out of nothing. Now I feel so much better about our country because seriously the traffic in Jakarta was 10 times worse than in KL. The road condition was bad. I think the traffic system was quite bad too because it was poorly coordinated.

The standard of living is really bad as the rich just get richer and vice versa. For the poor, I believe they have to start make a living at a very young age. I saw these kids aged from 10-12 years old waited outside of a mall with an umbrella on rainy days AT NIGHT. They were waiting for "customers". Their job was pretty simple as all they need to do was to put up umbrella for people who really need it. And they were not allowed to go anywhere near the mall entrance because there were mall guards who will shoo them away so they were all standing in the rain. They were running around bare feet outside the mall persuading people to use their "services" just to gain a very minimal tip. I wonder if it doesn't rain what do they make a living out of?

There are worse things but I don't want to be judgmental. After all, I was only there for 5 days compared to people who have lived their whole lives there. Nothing beats being at home and I am glad that I'm home. I may not have enjoyed that much during this vacation but there are definitely memorable things. The most important thing is that I spent it with the boy and his family.

If I am not lazy i will post about the trip and pictures but I think I will be lazy =D

Losing it

I feel like we are losing touch. We are not talking much. Even if we are chatting, it will take the longest time to get a reply from each other. We are not spending enough time together. We are both busy living our own separate lives. It feels like we are doing the LDR thingy. I feel lonely. Most of the time I will find things to do, people to accompany me, and places to go - but not with you. Because you are always busy. But I am not blaming you because I want the best for our future. I know you are working hard for it and I wish I could, in any ways, be a part of it. I miss you.

Sick I Am

Sick as a dog I am. I've never felt so sick before and I thought I was dying. Fever, throat infection, cough, flu - so H1N1. I quarantined myself at home for a week just in case it was H1N1. It was good not going to work but I am now left with more than 200 e-mails to read and lots of phone calls to return. I hate my job. I lost my voice due to throat infection and my phone was ringing non stop. A client texted me and he was like "Hi Nicole how are you? I called you but you never pick up (I lost my voice hello!) and called your office but your colleagues said you're very sick. Could you please check....." Yup, he knew I was very sick and yet he demanded me to do things for him. Does anyone understand anything about MEDICAL LEAVE? He called on average 5 times a day. I felt like stabbing him alive when I saw him. I think I will should.

I am still coughing as I type. Hate it so much. What's worse is I gave it to baby too. Now he is as sick as I am. Sorrryyyyyyyy~

I enjoy not putting on make up recently and it's refreshing because I've learnt to love my skin again. Obviously I look sick but I don't give a shit because I just love the convenience of not having to remove all the Nippon paint off my face. I am beginning to feel more comfortable facing baby with zero make up on (not that I didn't before but I make an effort to groom myself everytime I see him). I hope I didn't scare you. I go to work without make up on lately and I will make it a habit because it saves up a lot of time and my skin is getting better day by day. Me love!

Few pictures from the lot. Phuture with the crazy people.

I should stop hanging out with pretty people. Sigh...

The man with many wives...just kidding =P

The lobster

The couples

The guys

The ladies

The gays

The group shot. An incomplete one though

The greedy man

Grrr...Alex!

Erm....

Pavillion + Avatar with the family

The rascal

 

I'm so tired...I should sleep. Bye.

"Sis"

I hate bidding goodbyes. I hate farewells. I hate it the most when I have to do it again and again.

You will be leaving us once again tomorrow and I am sad that we didn't spend much time together when you're back. I almost forgot the fun times we had doing all the girly things together and you are so much like a sister to me. You always make me feel like I have a sister. A big sis. I have always wanting to be just like you - independent, strong, and successful. The very first time you left, I shed tears, so did the second time and now too. Maybe I've never said it but I love having you around. I hope to visit you in Adelaide some day. I know I will.

December 09

Hello world! Happy New Year~

2009 ended too soon for me ( I can't believe I am a year older wiser). Oh! A lot of things had happened last month and needless to say I have to welcome 2010 being as broke as the back mountain.

Here's a quick glance of my bittersweet December.

 

Went to Room Eighteen in BTS and got cheated.

 

 Celebrated our 5th Anniversary with erm...his parents.

Saw Penny Tai in Sg Wang when we sent his pc for fixing.

 Became ambassador for Rootz.

 

Nah...just kidding.

Did everything we could to break the law.

 Seduced by one of my besties.

Erm...yea

Made new friends

Found the tallest man in KL wtf

Tortured by Mei Wen in her pad after clubbin

Joined a gig..as if.

Made KL rain again. God bless us.

Celebrated Christmas Eve in Dubrovnik, Croatian Restaurant in Solaris, Mt Kiara

And then off to Michelangelo's for a drink before we MISSED the Xmas Eve countdown wtf because we were busy doing this....

aren't we beautiful?

 

and this...we're such beautiful pic spoilers. praise our mothers wtf.

I wrecked my car on Christmas Day on the way to boo boo's place. Thanks to the cars in front that stopped abruptly.

Booboo brought me to this chinese doctor at this ulu place to get my foot treated. It was swollen for almost a week after I got stepped on in Rootz by one of Hui Mann's friends. She was on heels. It is still bruised until today.

Then as a reward for my bravery for getting my foot treated, booboo brought me to Lookout point in Ulu Langat (I think) and Gasoline (a restaurant) there was ridiculous. They had this rule where people who sat outside could only order Western meal and tea of all the many food listed in the menu simply because they are incompetent wtf. The excuse given was that they couldn't handle the amount of orders they received that night. Hello, if you can't handle it, then don't open a restaurant. We left the place without eating of course. Lousy service.

Boxing day was celebrated with much joy as we traveled back in time to the 1960's yo! Look at us demure ladies <3

We celebrated New Year's eve in VEGAS baby! Yea, Vegas minus the strippers lol.

Actually it's only poker night hahhaa.

 

 This is so wrong...

 

 

 

 

 Fun times with everyone

Oh God, please let me have a better year ahead! I promise I'll be good..I'll try la.

Til then......