It's been quite some time since I ended my training programme with x-company (one of the top audit firms). I have always wanted to blog about my experience with them but I hesitated because blogging about work would only mean one thing - career suicide (according to kennysia). But heck, I'm not even a permanent staff of the company why should I care?
When I first joined the company as a vacation trainee, I only had one thing in my mind....I NEED SOMETHING ON MY RESUME. Yeah. That's the sole reason for me to actually work. Btw, speaking of this, I was quite offended when I last chatted with Mei May because according to her, my friends found it quite surprising and shocking for me to actually get a proper job. What now? I can't work? Seriously I take it as an insult. Nuff said.
Anyways, I thought this could be a wonderful experience as a trainee in a proper firm, whatmore they are one of the top. Boy, was I wrong. First, as a trainee, I worked OT everyday til 10pm, the latest being 11pm. EVERY FUCKING DAY. Yes you heard me. Never did I leave work at 5.30pm as stated in the contract. NEVER. So if I were to sue them I could have won the case. Oh well.
Let's not talk bout OT because it doesn't really matter. What bothered me was that as a VT i expected to be guided in a way or two but heck no. I was left to do my job all by myself since day one under minimal supervision. When I made some minor mistakes, all I got was scoldings and accusations. They really expect a trainee to know it all huh? If I were to know what to do I would have be in their positions as senior executives and managers. Do I need to go through all the shits to get training from their company? I don't think so. I guess this issue alone makes the VT programme lost its purpose.
Not forgetting the insults and offensive remarks I get everyday from the superiors. "Use your brain" "Where's your common sense?" "Think!" Yeah. If you were to ask me, I would say I have bigger brains that you. Think? When it comes to denial and accusations I think they are the best at it. I hate being accused for something that I did not do whatmore being accused of something that THEY INSTRUCTED WRONGLY. It irks me when people say one thing and does another. In this case, they instructed me one thing and when the upper management found it wrong, they put the blame on other people aka me. Wonderful isn't it? Just because I am a VT. Oh well, I guess someone has to take the blame no? *Akon's Sorry, blame it on me playing in the background*
Another reason for not working for this company is that the system sucks. Oh wait, they have no system at all. I have to report to 3 superiors. And every one of them often gives different instructions which resulted in conflicts and misunderstandings. And me being a VT always being pushed around because the people kept changing their minds and ended up with multiple decisions. This is even more wonderful than having multiple orgasm I tell you. Top firm? My ass. Not to mention I am being treated as a kuli. Heck! Even kulis get better pay okay! No I am not gonna mention my job scope but I deserve higher pay than just that mere RM500. New joiners get RM1500 and above and dare I say they do less. They chit chat more, go to the loo more, go home earlier than I do, tasks are easier to handle, push all the tasks to me and get blame less. Why would a company hire procastinators? I don't know. Don't ask me.
However, I really enjoyed working with my fellow colleagues, which I think only 2 of them because I worked closely with them. And the only thing that I'd learned throughout this whole vacation training programme is that it really takes a lot of patience to work in such firm as there are a lot of politics going on in the department itself. There are even medusa and two faced monsters. Sometimes you really have to let it go and just gulp down whatever hatred or discontentment or grudges that you have inside. It really changed my whole perception of the firm. Maybe different firms hold different agendas/systems but I would like to thank them for such pleasant/unpleasant experience. From the bottom of my heart.