Let go

I have been a psycho bitch lately. I haven't been very fair to you all this while. It's always me complaining how you do things to hurt me but I didn't really reflect on the hurtful words I'd said to you. I guess I owe you an apology. Tonight your question slapped me in the face. "Why are you so psycho?"

To be honest, I don't know why. I don't know when it started but I guess I am only psycho when I am with you. I guess I am again jealous, insecure and sensitive. I don't necessarily have to be like this but I chose to be. It's just a way to make me feel better by putting the blame on others. It's my escapade. When the attention is not on me I panic. I don't want it to be other people. I just want it to be me.

But I have come to realized that it is not always about me. I will not always be the one. Maybe the eagerness to control comes from the over-protectiveness of you over me. Maybe that contributes to my desire/need to control you because you are controlling me. I guess it's the matter of time where we both let go - little by little.

But when?                                                                                                           

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